I have recently been working a new garrys mod map as I am in the mood of making one. I have released another one a few days ago called Gm_Grave_Beyond, its been quite a show haha. I am planning on making this map a parody of russia and china. not to be political of course but just as a funny concept as I have no real knowledge of any country other than my own which is australia. I’m trying to turn it into a campaign gamemode of some sorts, been working on it for the past few days and its turning out great. Its actually the largest map I have ever made which is exciting. I am not going to over exert myself since I do not want to burn myself out (I am already half way there haha).

I’m kinda inspired by those crazy Half Life2 Modded games that people make that include alot of weird stuff haha. I remember playing TooManyCrates and really loved it, I also remember watching A Jolly Wangcore which is a really fun guy to watch on youtube.

More about me is that I have quit watching youtube myself. I was addicted for 12 years of watching youtube and it took over my life. so now that I have finally quit I can now focus on my personal life and other things I “enjoy”. Oh the joy it is to have freedom from an addiction. so this map is my way of trying to focus. I have been listening to spotify and soundcloud music and podcasts cause I find it helps drown out my intrusive thoughts and allows me to concentrate.

I have also got my license now and I am driving myself to places. I am currently driving the family car but my plan is to get my dream car which is a van. I’m gonna paint the van and do all sorts of stuff with it and its gonna be awsome. the reason I want a van is because I wanna go camping and also the fact that its a bigger canvas for painting on. I wanna have a setup in it where I can sleep and work on my projects. I also want it in case I go on long trips which I really want to do. My plan is once I have the van I can leave the city for a bit and maybe roam the country side. finally being able to leave my house and possibly my current life behind. I’ll live off of food I bought at shops in local towns, I’ll sleep in the van and park it in isolated places where I am sure no one is around. I would even want to be in those desert towns and stuff. and once I’m comfortable enough being out in the country for long periods of time, I’ll try and buy or rent a home out in some isolated town. it will be heaven. I haven’t told anyone that plan cause I know they’ll try to convince me to stay or that its a bad idea. but damit I really want to do this and its the only thing left I have to look forward too. I know its my only chance of any sort of happiness. I may have grown up in the city but it sure as hell doesn’t feel like home.