I have recently been working a new garrys mod map as I am in the mood of making one. I have released another one a few days ago called Gm_Grave_Beyond, its been quite a show haha. I am planning on making this map a parody of russia and china. not to be political of course but just as a funny concept as I have no real knowledge of any country other than my own which is australia. I’m trying to turn it into a campaign gamemode of some sorts, been working on it for the past few days and its turning out great. Its actually the largest map I have ever made which is exciting. I am not going to over exert myself since I do not want to burn myself out (I am already half way there haha). I’m kinda inspired by those crazy Half Life2 Modded games that people make that include alot of weird stuff haha. I remember playing TooManyCrates and really loved it, I also remember watching A Jolly Wangcore which is a really fun guy to watch on youtube. More about me is that I have quit watching youtube myself. I was addicted for 12 years of watching youtube and it took over my life. so now that I have finally quit I can now focus on my personal life and other things I “enjoy”. Oh the joy it is to have freedom from an addiction. so this map is my way of trying to focus. I have been listening to spotify and soundcloud music and podcasts cause I find it helps drown out my intrusive thoughts and allows me to concentrate. I have also got my license now and I am driving myself to places. I am currently driving the family car but my plan is to get my dream car which is a van. I’m gonna paint the van and do all sorts of stuff with it and its gonna be awsome. the reason I want a van is because I wanna go camping and also the fact that its a bigger canvas for painting on. I wanna have a setup in it where I can sleep and work on my projects. I also want it in case I go on long trips which I really want to do. My plan is once I have the van I can leave the city for a bit and maybe roam the country side. finally being able to leave my house and possibly my current life behind. I’ll live off of food I bought at shops in local towns, I’ll sleep in the van and park it in isolated places where I am sure no one is around. I would even want to be in those desert towns and stuff. and once I’m comfortable enough being out in the country for long periods of time, I’ll try and buy or rent a home out in some isolated town. it will be heaven. I haven’t told anyone that plan cause I know they’ll try to convince me to stay or that its a bad idea. but damit I really want to do this and its the only thing left I have to look forward too. I know its my only chance of any sort of happiness. I may have grown up in the city but it sure as hell doesn’t feel like home.

Made jeff the killer in lego starwars TCS custom character creator. I think I’ll use him in a roleplay video or something.

Thought I’d share this since I love this design. Its a bit hard to see but its still pretty cool

So I’ve been playing Lego Starwars The Complete Saga for the first time in YEARS!!! it is so freaking fun. I used to play it growing up and even once 100% completed it. it is one of my favourite games since I starting playing it again. I hadn’t played it since I got my ps5 since I stopped using my xbox 360 for it. I really rcommend the game and I hope u all enjoy

So I went to my cousins on saturday to celebrate my uncles birthday. I went swimming in there pool where we all made a whirl pool, it went pretty fast. I also played bugger cricket and catched the ball alot of time. I also got to hit the ball too with a bat. I ate lemerange pie and lunch as well. it was delicous. anyway enjoy this picture of me and zeman101

Watch me play lego starwars  the Complete saga. Only the first level and canteena https://youtu.be/NRROiCY9K4Y?si=8S85fLdq9qUw8WNK  

I made this in the art room of the mental hospital I am currently staying at, thought I’d post it here. I followed my mind melt mate. ultimately I ate boscaola for lunch and pork with crispy dumpling like food for dinner. way to end off the year aye. I can’t believe I’m in here, its almost like its not even happening  haha. I kinda just accepted that I admitted myself here about an hr away from home. the staff are good but my first impressions on the psychiatrist is not so good. I got my cords for my computer and ipad back at lunch time. I don’t know wether I am allowed to make videos in the ward so I’m not gonna risk it. I posted some videos before I got here which I regret posting cause they were made when I was struggling alot with mental health. I think I might just take the videos down since people are seeing em and being creepy with them. they also show a side of myself that I am uncomfortable with. today I went and used the art room here for the first time. the people there were lovely and are full of love. I had a couple times where I was extremely depressed and just sat alone and cried my eyes out. but I am overal ok here. I feel much safer here then at home. The artwork I guess the eyes represent my paranoia of being spyed on, and the eyelashes represent the overtness of the cameras. the guy itself is what I fear behind the cameras.

Today I draw this. it float out of my mind and onto the screen. I went to my psychiatrist, I see him every 3 months and I suggested a condition to him that I thought I showed signs of. so I made a list on my phone of what I experience and handed it to him. he then said “I actually have a note here from when we first met that says STPD” he then goes on and explains that I am right on the mark and that he has been thinking that I had this since we met. I was blown away on how I was right on the money, he then asks me lots of questions relating to it and ended up diagnosing me with it. that condition is SchizoTypal Personality Disorder. It is on the schizophrenia spectrum but it is not the same as schizophrenia. since the meaning of the name explains the reasoning aka schizotypal means “prone to psychosis” it means that I am prone to transient psychosis during stress which luckily I am being treated for years with a medication called risperidone (all though it only treats the psychosis and not the disorder). there is no treatment for schizotypal, there is only treatment for the anxiety and transient psychosis. Schizotypal is defined as eccentric or odd behavier with struggle in socialness and making friends. we also experience paranoia towards people and magical thinking. people with schizotypal usually experience illusions as well where we constantly see things in the corner of our eyes but they usually end up being some sort of object. I experience illusions since childhood and it has worsened over time to the point where I see em 3 times aday. but the thing is that the schizotypals understand that there not real but will think that they are about to see a monster or something paranormal.   I make this extremely clear, I am very new to this disorder but I know enough to know that I shouldn’t be afraid or shameful about it. I am truly blessed to have the mind I do, without my unique way of thinking I think I wouldn’t be making the things I do today. I hope u all enjoy and have a good life. if there is any schizotypals out there. Please don’t be ashamed of yourselves, there are people out there that are like u. u are not alone. see ya everyone

Lately

Hewwo everyone. As you’ll might not know, I have a new computer and ipad. its costing me a alot of money but it was about time I replaced some of my most used devices. Its very refreshing not having to worry about the battery on my ipad as this one doesn’t run out on 80-60%, and its also refreshing not having to worry about my old del laptop overheating from me having 5 different programs open working on lots of things at the same time. and as you’ll might also not know… IT WAS MY BIRTHDAY A FEW DAYS AGO!!!!! so thats cool.

I got the computer for my birthday and I’ve been using it to learn JavaScript. As yall might not know (but I really doubt it) it is a Developer Language that allows you to add functionalitys to web, but it has been used to create games and works along side CSS and HTML (Which I know both). I’ve been learning through w3shools courses and of course my mum (Who is a web developer) has been giving me tips and tricks to help me develop this website and other things like games.

“Me sitting at my desk with my new computer and ipad”

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Shooting game

lately I am developing a game where u shoot targets, it is made out of HTML, CSS, JavaScript. Its not very far into development, at the moment I’m trying to figure out how to make a

HEWWO EVERYONE!!! I’m back and alot has changed. So for starters the reason why I haven’t been om the website for a months is because I’ve been distracted by the fact that I finally got a new ipad after 6 or 7 years of having the same ipad. I used to mainly use my ipad for watching youtube while I use my computer or eating, and I was also confined to a charger due to the battery running out on 60-100 percent. but now I can draw and animate on the new ipad using the greates app of all time, procreate/procreate-dreams. I can also model using a app called Nomad which will help me make 3d art. the screen is 13 inch so it pretty and is hard t0 reach things on the screen but is visually stunning and very usefull to work with, especially if u have double vision like me which makes it hard to see small things on screens. I also have the apple pencil which is helping alot with the drawing. it is a bit uncomfortable to use but I’m used to using my wacom tablet to draw so I should ease into it quite peacefully. Now I was gonna come back to the website about a week ago but I found out that my computer had finally kicked the bucket. so I had to find a alternative to find a way to satisfy my lust for content creation. so I start posting videos to another channel called vo0d0oi56 where I make irl videos and gaming stuff and finally realising I can log into this website on none other than my new ipad :3 so here I am. today I was rearranging my room and clearing shelves when I decided I would grab my big wooden shelve and move it down the stairs. as I took the first step down the stair I rolled my ankle and fell down the stairs with the shelf falling ontop of me. I possibly sprained my ankle although its been a few hrs and the swelling and pain is gone so I think I should be fine, I think I landed on my head but I also think the shelf hitting the wall before me slowed my fall. I think I just have a r0lled ankle which should be fine by tomorrow. nothing that a ice pack and some rest should fix haha. I was laughing the whole time too so I should be fine. Anyway here is a picture of me. I hope u like

I am currently making a Stay for for myself. it is gonna contain a backyard and a overlook of the Oak Block City. it also has a view of the castle on the side deck. It will be a beautiful Stay and will be a nice touch to the minecraft world. The whole Stay is located on the top of a hill which adds a nice asethetic for the build. it will contain a couple rooms without doors as I wanted it to be a open space for anyone to enjoy.. Post will be updated over time until build is finished so stay tuned.

Castle Alphy will be the staple of my Minecraft world. it will be big, it will be grand, and it will certainly be massive. I love castles and no one can tell me otherwise. it will be my magnum opus. It will be made of Cobblestone, Oak Planks, Birch logs, Oak Logs, and Glass. I am unsure what the final result will be but I am so excited.  this is what I got so far. I used all the Cobblestone that I got in the tiny Oak City, I’ll update u all soon.  

I have been working on a oak block city in my world Owland. it is gonna be covered in torches and will be a great edition for the world. When I started this project I had to dig a big hole in the ground. the walls of this whole will be surrounded by cobblestone with a gravel path along the top of it.

I then filled the bottom of the hole with cobblestone and started making a maze of oak blocks and have started extruding them to the top of the hole. the oakblocks get higher depending on how far away from the centre they are. this gives it a sort of city like feel with the oak blocks acting like buildings and sky scrapers. the maze like appearance is supposed to function like roads and streets, just like a city.

I have finally finished it. It is very cool :3 I love the style and will be making buildings around it. I am currently working on something that is outside the building, but it is very cool. I hope u all enjoy. here is the final photo and video.

https://youtu.be/W1pXCjvw6DU?si=LnGG5BiTstQll30i